feels like a stupid girl

Malam ni aku rase cam sedihhh sangat..tetbe je kne mara n tengking2..Btol la die ckp,,aku ni memang mnyusahkan hidop die je....Semua hal org,aku yg jd mgse..Sume masalah,aku yg jd tempat lpas gram..haihh...pasni,,aku da dok jauh,,tade da org na nyusahkan ko...aku ta kontek ko pon...da laa aku ni jenis kalo  sekali da nges,,sume sangat na benti..kalo bole stu mlam tu na lpaskan sumenye,,..taw ak,bnde yg mnyebabkan aku ta benti2 na nanges,,aku ingt balek pe die wat kat aku,,sume bende yg die ckp kat aku,,maki-maki aku tu,,sume yg die ungkit2 pasal aku,,mmg aku taley trime senanye..tp na wat cne..terpakse hdap jgak wlupon tak nak kan??smpai skang,,even tgah type2 nih,,aku still meleleh2 jgak..tah knape,,rse cam sedeh gler2.....:( asal aku je yg kne jd bhan tok die lpas gram?!kalo benci sangat,,aku bole blaa laa....just ko ta dpt ape yg ko nak,,aku plak yg  kne ean?i'm still crying rite now n i dont now why...haha..i want to be a strong girl,but i can't...am i look like a very stupid??yeahh,,i think so..senyap je ble die maki-maki aku,,yg aku taw menanges je ble blakang die..ta berani pon na ckp pape ngan die..kalo na taw,,tiap kali aku kne camtu,,aku haraaap sangat ade org support aku,backup aku,pertahankan aku..tp xde pon...berangan la ko sue...xde org paham ko pon..:( what i mean just now is..i can get a little bit of ur heart for me..i dont want a sympathy..hopefully...thank you very much do this to me...im really2 appreciate that..:(